Things are looking up...

It is 8:00 on Wednesday night Feb.17 and I have a smile on my face. A real smile...not one of those fake ones we have all flashed all too often. I can actually feel a little piece of happiness brewing in my soul and guess what?!? It feels good!

You want to know why I am smiling inside and out tonight? Is the suspense killing you? I bet a lot of you think I'm pregnant right about now. Hahaha...fooled ya'! I'm not pregnant. So the other half of you are thinking we are adopting a child. Nope...not that either. I am smiling inside and out tonight because I got a job. Whoa!!! Yea...you read it right. I got a job and not just any job. I got a job at the one and only CES!!! The school where I taught before Ian was born. The school where all my friends are and the place where I feel at home. I am so happy y'all....so happy!

My position is a graduation coach. I will only be working 18 hours a week and I have a flexible schedule. I mean could it sound any better. I will be working with kids as a mentor. I might work with kids who are struggling in reading or math, or kids who have behavior problems, or with kids who simply need an adult to talk to. I think I will love this position and I am so hopeful for what it will bring to my life. A new direction....

Wow...I am overwhelmed by the people asking me to speak at their churches, to their youth groups, and to ladies groups. I promised God..."If you bring us through this I promise I will honor You through our story." He isn't forgetting that promise evidently. I am going to try and post a column on the blog with all of the information about future speaking engagements so if you are in one of those towns you can come and hear me. A lot of people have been upset because they didn't know I was speaking somewhere and they weren't able to make it. You all know it all if you have kept up with our story but I'll share it again. I love to talk about Ian and you all know that. : ) I am really not cut out for public speaking but I made the promise so here goes....following God's plan!

Well I better go. I have a popcorn box to make for my new "office" at school. Can you believe it?!? I have an "office." I am pumped about being a working woman again and even more pumped about being at CES. Can you tell???

Have a blessed day tomorrow and know that your prayers for a weeping 26 year old brokenhearted mommy are working. They are working and I feel them at this very moment. I think you are all awesome!

New pic of Ian...I think tonight he is saying..."Go mommy go! Get out there and do a good job! I knew you would do it...I just knew it! Hey guys...that's MY mommy." Oh how I love him and miss him dearly.

Deuteronomy 31:6 (The Message)
"Be strong. Take courage. Don't be intimidated. Don't give them a second thought because God, your God, is striding ahead of you. He's right there with you. He won't let you down; he won't leave you."