I have no words...

I know it has been forever since I updated. I have tried time and time again but I have no words. I have been trying to keep myself busy so I don't focus on the sadness that still resides in my soul. I am convinced at this point in my life that I will forever have a piece of my heart missing and that I will simply have to live without that portion of my heart and soul. It's hard and I'm trying my hardest to find happiness but I am losing hope.

I did take sunflower pictures and I loved it!!! I had the time of my life playing with the kids and seeing all the families who wanted their pics made with Ian's sweet flowers. I am now finished with pictures, editing, and ordering and whew...it was more work than I anticipated. It was joyful work though and I loved being in the beautiful sunflower field each day.

I have been in my classroom a lot this summer. I have worked and worked trying to create a class where the kids want to be every day. I forgot how much I loved being a teacher until I started preparing for the kids. This is my last full week of summer and it is kind of bittersweet. I have been at home for such a long time I don't remember what it is like to work a full-time job. Better yet...Wae doesn't remember what it is like for his wife to work a full-time job. LOL!!! We will adjust and I am sure it will be good for me to keep my mind busy and try to find a new purpose. I have my class list and that always makes it seem like school is about to start. I am going to take pictures this week and let you all see how the room turned out. I even had Ian painted on the wall outside my door. I have a tree and there is a swing hanging from it. There is a little boy swinging on that swing and from the looks of it I'd say he's the most handsome little boy I've ever seen painted on a wall. :)

I posted some pics of the sunflower pics so you could see how cute they turned out. I've had a few people trying to talk me into cotton pics, halloween pics, and Santa pics now. Whew...we'll have to see how the school year is going :) I do love it though and it is a hobby that I love possibly as much as shopping, chocolate, and coke. Now that let's you know how much I enjoy it. LOL!!!